Move along move along when the hope is gone

I have a car suction-cup thingee which says "When the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping".

How do I begin to explain what the going is like for me right now? aftotz does a pretty good job of hers, but I just don't really want to start because if I do, like a boss of mine says it really makes "my blood go upstairs". And things will start getting blown out of proportion, or are they already?

Suffice to say I now know what statements like "sanity hanging by a thread" means and it's really scary but I think I commisserate with Sylvia Plath's whole belljar concept more than I would like to.

So. I once said something about making choices and biting bullets, not excuses.

The thing is, to me there was always a difference between doing what it takes, and doing what you can do. And I always thought, if everyone tried a little harder to do what it takes, then we'd be so much closer to what it should be, less people would have to just do what they can do, the world would be a better place etc.

But now, when it comes to choosing between my sanity and what it takes, I choose my sanity - there's no bouncing back if you're broken. Maybe that's what the truth is about - people do what they can because doing what it takes is not feasible for survival.

So. My laptop taskbar is hung - I am going shopping in about an hour. Hopefully when I am back it'll be the little man, instead of the Wizard of Oz waiting.

Perspective my dear, is everything.